Not so far ago… exactly 375 days ago, I made a mocking parade on a friend of mine for wearing white and voluntarily standing in a booth.. I actually wrote a note about it : http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=52061622349
Back then, I didn’t intend to make fun of the idea of volunteering itself, I just thought it was so unlikely that it would make a good subject for ridicule, plus I wanted to mess with my friend :)
I had no idea back then that in less than a year, I would stand in three booths, two in which I wore white to, and the other one I actually wore a pink baroque and an orange pumpkin hat !! (http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4903737&l=3f947d60ee&id=728380609)
Of course the irony here doesn’t escape me, the same act that I once thought was silly, I am committing now exactly a year from then, wearing the same T-shirt that I once thought it looked like a gas station uniform (I still do by the way :), but I wear it proudly nevertheless)
So what changed during this year that made me turn form mocking an act, to actually committing it proudly? In order for you to fully understand that change, we’ll have to go back to the mocking Era.
Back then the IST entry in my dictionary was “IST (n) : just another student model”, but it was bound to change as I got to know my friends better, less than a month into the future the definition shifted, it became “just another student model whose members are really close”, I kept mocking though..
The motive then wasn’t that clear, I just kept mocking as an act of habit, another month to the future, I began to realize that there was something more to it, but should the mockery and the ridicule stop? No my dear friend, It became clear to me that I was actually envious!! Envious about the connection they had with other members, envious about the moments they shared… but it wasn’t enough to get me convinced, ergo the mockery shall continue.
And as I think about it now, the connection and the belonging they had wasn’t the reason per se, but it was a hell of big reason to screw with that dictionary of mine, few months later that page in the dictionary was whipped, and a single sentence emerged from that contradicting chaos, and declared itself as the definition that was bound to stay …
Back then, I didn’t intend to make fun of the idea of volunteering itself, I just thought it was so unlikely that it would make a good subject for ridicule, plus I wanted to mess with my friend :)
I had no idea back then that in less than a year, I would stand in three booths, two in which I wore white to, and the other one I actually wore a pink baroque and an orange pumpkin hat !! (http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4903737&l=3f947d60ee&id=728380609)
Of course the irony here doesn’t escape me, the same act that I once thought was silly, I am committing now exactly a year from then, wearing the same T-shirt that I once thought it looked like a gas station uniform (I still do by the way :), but I wear it proudly nevertheless)
So what changed during this year that made me turn form mocking an act, to actually committing it proudly? In order for you to fully understand that change, we’ll have to go back to the mocking Era.
Back then the IST entry in my dictionary was “IST (n) : just another student model”, but it was bound to change as I got to know my friends better, less than a month into the future the definition shifted, it became “just another student model whose members are really close”, I kept mocking though..
The motive then wasn’t that clear, I just kept mocking as an act of habit, another month to the future, I began to realize that there was something more to it, but should the mockery and the ridicule stop? No my dear friend, It became clear to me that I was actually envious!! Envious about the connection they had with other members, envious about the moments they shared… but it wasn’t enough to get me convinced, ergo the mockery shall continue.
And as I think about it now, the connection and the belonging they had wasn’t the reason per se, but it was a hell of big reason to screw with that dictionary of mine, few months later that page in the dictionary was whipped, and a single sentence emerged from that contradicting chaos, and declared itself as the definition that was bound to stay …
“IST : One big family”
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